The summer of 2012 had many great moments for me. New York City, Into the Woods, SHINE 2012, moving back home, my birthday, etc. It was a good summer. Possibly the best summer of my life. However, around the time of my birthday, I had a revelation that I never thought I would have.
Friends are crucial to survival. I don’t believe that a person can have too many friends. They provide us with company when we need it, shoulders when we need a good cry, laughs when we’re down, and support when we’re in need of it most. Best friends? Some people have them, some people don’t. Not that big of a deal. During the middle of the summer, I began thinking of friends that I have. Being at home, Union friends were not as accessible as they are during semesters. I found myself at home a lot, doing any number of things. This really got me depressed. I started asking myself, “Outside of Union, do I have any good friends?” I have never had a problem making and keeping friends. I mean, during Into the Woods, I hung out with some amazing people every day for 8 weeks. But once it was over, I didn’t see any of them. We all got too busy for each other, I suppose. I started getting very lonely. I listened to called “Learn to be Lonely,” a song by Andrew Lloyd Webber and sung by the incredible Minnie Driver. It talks about enjoying the loneliness. I was sad. I really, really was. I graduated with 104 other people and I am close to 2 of them now. And I only see them maybe once every two months. What was going on?!
I prayed hard that God would help me make it through this. I didn’t know what to do until August. I had over a month to cope with this before I went back to Jackson. I needed friendship. I don’t do well when I’m alone. I get depressed, lonely, mad, and confused. I knew I had to trust God on this one to see me through.
My God is a God of providence. Since that summer, He has provided me with friendship that I never imagined. I didn’t realize it until just yesterday and it has been amazing. My younger brother, Quinten, is now my best friend (the most important friendship I have). I continually grow in friendship with my music major family as time goes by. Several casual friends at Union have become closer to me than I ever dreamed. There is even a girl back home in McNairy County that I have been able to spark a new friendship with. We’ve just kinda been able to work things out and have become extremely good friends. I have so much to be thankful for.
So, for you lonely souls out there, it can be very easy to get down in the dumps about this. I encourage you to seek after the Lord and pray for His provision. Ask Him if there are people in your life that need friendship just like you. I promise you this: He will see you through.